Happy New Day folks!
Yesterday (last year) I had a little rant about New Year’s Jumblings. Cos I don’t really understand a lot of it. Cos it doesn’t make sense.
But that was Then. This is Now!
And as I promised, here are the New Wishes I’m beginning my version of 2015 with:
To double the weight I can lift now.
I began weight training 3 months ago. It’s been damned hard, I hurt and ache more of the time than I don’t.
But I get the biggest buzz from it, and have squashed so many mental blocks and phobias along the way already. And I quietly amuse myself with thoughts of how absurd this seems in comparison to my first 4 decades on this planet.
If the previous version of me heard me wish this (even earlier last year), she would have fallen off the sofa laughing. Then asked me what I was on, and could she have some 😉
So, I’m small and flimsy, but I’m doing my best. And my best is (gradually) getting better. (For the record, I’m dead lifting 1/2 my OBW now. Just!)
And in turn my yoga practice is getting stronger and a whole lot less fally-over with my new found sense of balance!
To Live my Art.
Art has always been at my core.
It’s the centre of my being. It’s my purpose. I always knew this.
And for all that long time I dismissed it as frills and extras – when space and time permitted – to getting on with the serious job of not enjoying of life. WTF? Yes, old thinking, bad programming, obsolete life plan.
So if you’ve read my previous witterings you’ll know I embarked on the art school adventure just a few short years ago, and I now plan to move on from art student (my highest ideal when I began) to actual real live artist!
I’m joining the Dirty Footprints 21 Secrets in the Spring. Meanwhile I’ve got my Newest Sketchbook Project to begin today!
Whatever it is, FFS, just let it go!
The tension in my shoulders, the stupid things I did and said, the wanting things to be different from how they are, the wishing those wasted years back, the constant want of approval, congratulation, praise and ego bolstering.
Let it all go.
The need to make everyone laugh. Or think differently from how they are. Or be other than they are. All those judgements, the blame, the remorse, all that past – the whole darned lot of it!
There’s stuff I don’t know if I need to let go of, or persevere with – y’know that quandary? Yup, let that needing to know go too.
If it matters, it won’t go far.
So that’s the essence of my Three Big Wishes.
I also wish you well, as well. Be well, lovely folks! X