100 days: 14-21
“The way we do anything is the way we do everything.”
~ Martha Beck
Do you have patterns you keep falling back to?
I’m three weeks into this 100 day project, and I’m noticing more patterns – not only the literal doodled patterns and shapes I return to in my drawings, but the patterns of thought in my behaviour and habits.
It’s the spirals and swirls, AND it’s the haphazardness and self talk that accompanies every process. The consistency of my inconsistency, how I dart between the extremes of all & nothing, the wonkiness of the line and skewed perspective, the mid range despair before conceding: this is my way. I gotta learn to like it, keep practicing, don’t stop and dwell here. Keep moving, keep learning, trust the process.
Here is week 3:
The 100 day project is teaching me so much already: about commitment for instance. I did not want to post this one. I could easily have drawn something else, or skipped on to the next day, and no-one but I would have known. But there’s the key: I would have known.
I’m doing this for all sorts of reasons, and getting better at drawing ‘real’ things is one of them. And showing up to myself is another thing. So here I am literally doing this! Morning panda eyes, this is me. (Oh, and how I see my hair: full of doodles.)
The word that stood out in the whatever-I-was-listening-to today was Dissolve. I’m enjoying the connection between this, the meaning of ‘forming a solution’, merging to become a part of, and my unending seeking of answers. And to let all that dissolve too. Let it all go.
The photo I used is a fabulous light I saw in Barcelona. It’s like the sun ☀️ . .
Somewhere between keeping it simple – 1 color, black pen & pencil – and totally over complicating with all the doodles and patterns. Both. Everything. All of it. .
One thing I’m working on in this project is the notion of leaving white space. Breathing space. Moments of quiet.
So by making quiet space a part of my drawings I’m training myself to let this into other parts of life too.
I went to the Tate modern gallery on my birthday, and walking up from the station I was captivated by this image. So many lines and angles, triangles and patterns.
I just noticed the synchronicity of the numbers: Day 17, and my birthday is the 17th. I like when you his happens. I take it as a clue I’m on track with what I’m doing.
‘Do What You Love’ it said, and round the corner ‘Love What You Do’.
That’s it. Right here. That’s what I’m doing.
Today is made of wonky lines of words and scribbles. Some days have more words than others, and this was one of them. Been thinking a lot about dreaming, last night was a series of distinct dreams within dreams, like Russian dolls, fractal layers.
This morning I found a podcast series about lucid dreaming, so that was my ‘morning drawing listening’ for today. .
I take so many photos like this, I can’t resist the textures and patterns in stone walls 😊
The words ‘safe understanding’ meant something at the time I wrote them, but I either got distracted or overestimated what me-in-the-future would remember about the context. Nonetheless they’re good solid words to be on a wall.
There was a time when photos would exist only on paper, and once developed would get muddled and out of synch. I would not have kept the memory of seeing this wall in the chronological organisation that digital images have, so would have soon forgotten that today’s image was within minutes of the following (much more memorable) one. Things like this counter balance all that’s infuriating about digital life.
I invited this girl I found while I was exploring Sacramento. Last year I tripped across the states by train from Seattle to Chicago. I had just a few hours here between trains, it was early morning before the day had really woken up so I strolled around looking for art. And I found it!
If you missed the previous parts, you can find them here: Week 1 & Week 2
If you want to follow along this project day by day I’m posting on Instagram (where you can also see more WIP & detail pix) & Facebook
All through this summer I’m offering a special discount in my Etsy Shop to all the folks on my mailing list – so clickety-hop aboard today if you want to snag a bargain!
(and I’ll send you my ebook A Year full of Color as a thank you for joining)
16 thoughts on “Exploring through drawing”
Mixy this post is absolutely positively incredible, insightful, soul-baring….I’m sharing it with other friends who I know will find your words healing, challenging and downright stand-up straight, righteous. Art is a great teacher, isn’t she? I can also see the results of your journey in your beautiful and unique work. Something tells me this journey is leading you to a brand new place….can’t wait to see where it takes you!
LikeLiked by 2 people
Thank you, Carol, that means so much to me! It’s a funny thing, posting stuff like this, if you know of anyone who would find this of value I’d be delighted for you to send them this way!
You’re so right, art is an extraordinary teacher. I’m seeing metaphors so loud and clear, they aren’t great revelations, so much as a translation from thought to actual understanding.
Here’s a funny thing: when I began I was a little daunted at the project of keeping a consistent habit for 100 days. Then day 25 arrived: “oh…”, I heard myself think “…only 3/4 of this left to go, and I’m just beginning to understand what I can get from this!”
So perhaps it’s going to take more than 100 days… let’s see!!
Mixy, all I can say is that I am with Carola 100%…Your explorations into so many variations blow me away…brilliant and inspiring work !
LikeLiked by 1 person
thank you so much John, that means a lot. 🙂